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2013-02-09

Human Variations: Chapter Two


CHAPTER TWO


I’m not a wild horse
to be broken.
I’m not a token
to be flipped in the air,
and lost,
In the dust of your memory


Silver streaked their regal wings as they emerged from the snow caps into the quiet dusk. They laced through the stinging air, disappearing into the mystified blue of the darkening sky. A million stars revealed the playful mood of the awakening night, as the crystallized fingers of the hermetic trees clawed at the silent mountains.

Memory mingled with expectation, congealing into agony.

Her boots, caked with crusty slime, crunched on the dry twigs and fallen leaves. Although it was mid-September, the bitter cold found its shrinking target with relentless accuracy. Her heart entombed in layers of clothing, pounded in a steady rhythm, and her legs, though sturdy and well-trained, quivered with exhaustion. Her aching back could barely support the sack with the meager possessions she had taken in her flight.

 Her stomach contracted painfully, as her head started to pound with hunger. Her last meal of lentils and rice, the only fare to be had, had worn thin. Her memory taunted her with visions of the enticing delicacies she had once had access to. Her mouth watered, but she firmly removed all such thoughts from her mind. She had without regret closed all doors to the elite society in which she grew up. Her actions precluded returning to the familiar opulence which had been almost as staggering as the decay it hid. From the time she entered the wasted, beggar-swamped streets of the city, in her desperate journey to the mountains, she did not look back.

The wind rose to a whining moan. She controlled her mind, drawing from her years of training, piecing out the trail she had minutely planned. This was no haphazard escape, yet it was not without its dangers. They would pursue her, bent on taking revenge for her treacherous and traitorous acts as they perceive them. Those who will be sent to find her and eventually kill her will not know the truth behind her actions...

Bam!

Mika’s body shudders so violently, as she falls from the sofa where she had fallen asleep onto the soft rug below. Disoriented, scared, drained from so many nights of restless, vision-filled sleep, she hugs herself to stabilize. She knows she needs help, and fast.

***

Samantha Burke's address is in a poorer part of the city.  She lives in an old, once quite majestic, house that has been sectioned off into apartments out of desperate necessity.  The house itself is quietly falling apart, but is doing so with some dignity. The owners have tried to keep it up, but the elements and the economy have gone against them.

 The officer that stands the door is obviously amused to see Curtis. “Surprised you don’t have your hands too full tonight, Bain.”

. Curtis grins at the tall blonde. “You went and got married Petros; there was no choice. What do we have here?”

Eva Petros shrugs. "Not much; forensics are finishing up in there. The door was locked from inside. She was lying near a table in the corner. It kinda looks like a shrine. There were no obvious signs of struggle, but her neighbor heard her scream.”

Curtis nods. “Thanks. Who’s in there?”

The officer smirks. ”Rebecca and Bill.”

“Perfect!”

His wry tone doesn't escape the officer and she grins. "Rebecca will be delighted to see you.”

Curtis winks, “Hey! We’re all on the same side.”

Eva grins. “Sure thing, Task Force.”.

Curtis quietly steps in, ignoring the annoyed glances from the detectives. The only good thing about Ms. Burke's apartment is the high ceilings. It's small and drafty. The windows are useless for light. Curtis can't believe anyone would willingly live here. It is obvious she tried to give it some color with the prints on the wall and the pillows, but the place is a dump. He studies the room meticulously.

The open window is open, it's lace curtains billow wildly with the arctic wind. The room is very neat, except for the small pedestal table in the corner where the victim (of what?) was found. Curtis examines it. The thick white candle stands melded on layers of other melted candles. The table itself is covered with candle drippings, forming an awesome and slightly grotesque sculpture. The officer was right; it does look like a shrine; but there are no pictures, no statuettes, none of the usual trappings.

 Curtis shakes his head. He seriously doubts there is a crime to investigate here, but it is a mystery. He steps over to the two detectives, to confer, knowing he will have to overcome their usual reluctance. This reaction doesn’t bother him. Curtis’ focus is elsewhere. He loves a good mystery.

***

Kiro Hammond absently drums his fingers on the desk as he quickly scans his newest patient's file. He scowls. Dr. Malcolm has asked him to review this case that has stumped even her. The recurring dreams and lack of sleep intrigue him. A clear picture of Mika Gurin has formed in his mind. It wasn't the meticulous contents of the folder or the words she spoke that gave him the clues. It was her voice on the tapes. The inflections, intonations, the pauses, the chewed phrases have revealed the broken path that his newest patient is on.

He closes the file.

He swivels in his seat to look out at the darkening Toronto skyline. The Tower flickers warnings to oncoming planes, much as the warnings flicker in his head. He reaches back and pulls out the elastic that binds his hair in its controversial ponytail, and loosens his tie. He feels a headache coming on. The peace and turmoil of the last few days on his boat recede to the background of his mind.

His life which has led him from the cosmopolitan to the primitively ancient cities of the world brought him back home. Back to the place he vowed he would never see. He, unlike most in his profession, believes in destiny, making the feelings he has been getting recently hard to overlook. Something big is about to happen.

 He reaches for the photograph that has gone everywhere with him, even on weekend conferences. He strokes the cool frame and gazes at the two faces that were so dear to him. His mother, smiles serenely, her almond eyes reflecting the beauty of her Japanese soul. She stands safely in her husband's arms. His father, a tall rugged Irishman with a weather-beaten face grins at his beloved. Kiro hopes he will have their courage and confidence to brave the storm coming...

His parents had weathered many storms in their lives. They even survived the greatest and longest monsoon of disapproval their marriage wrought. Both families were vocal in their resentment of a white Irish man marrying a Japanese woman; of a mariner marrying a noble woman. They were both thrown out of their respective families; but they didn't let people's dismay phase them . This was love pure and simple.

Their only true sorrow was that their beloved son was thrown into exile with them, but Kiro had never minded. His parents' magic was more than enough for him. He lived an enchanted life. To him, his parents were gods. Perhaps that is why he lost them so soon...

The wage of idolatry is death...

Kiro returns the photograph gently to its place of honour, as the phone rings. It is his aunt confirming their lunch date.

***

 All day, pins and nettles have been coursing though Mika’s system. She has worked like a robot, getting through twice as much as any other day. Others have steered clear of her, afraid to be near when the spontaneous combustion would surely kick in.

 Keeping busy is the only antidote to the constant churning worry She hopes her afternoon appointment with this doctor "whiz" will settle this turmoil that’s lasted for almost a year.

"Where the hell is Jones?"

"He called earlier. He won't be coming in until later. He was pretty hush-hush."

"I'll show him hush-hush. Who’s covering the Burke story? When, IF, he calls in, tell him to haul it in here, pronto!"

“Ummm...” Her assistant backs away slightly.

Mika takes a deep breath and smiles. This isn't the poor girl’s fault. “Sorry, Becca. I’m on edge and I don’t mean to go all Medusa on you. I’ll take care of it. Thank you.”

She sits down and picks up the phone. Her contact at the hospital dropped this case into her lap, and she is determined to get to the bottom of it. Time to call in some chips.

***

"So, darling, how have you been?"

Kiro smiles warmly, "I can't complain Auntie."

The very polished woman who looks no older than him swiftly scans the nearby tables and frowns. "You know better than to call me that!"

"I don't see why not." Kiro grins mischievously.

She makes a droll pouting expression. "For a psychiatrist,  you have a pathetic lack of understanding for human vanity."

Kiro laughs as she gives him a hearty wink. "My dearest Mattie nothing can detract from your beauty."

Mattie’s laughter is like champagne crystal. “ You've been working on your charm, I see.”

"I try. What's new and sparkling on your horizon?"

"Did I tell you about my upcoming cruise to the islands?"

"No, you haven't but I'm sure you will."

Mattie takes a delicate sip from her glass. “i hate drinking alone. Why don't you have some wine?"

"Never at lunch dear."

Mattie sighs. "You make me feel like such a lush. Why can’t you learn to let loose a little?."

"It wouldn't do to intoxicate by patients with my breath. Now, you were saying about the cruise?."

Kiro listens carefully and affectionately to the details of his aunt’s newest escapade. Throughout the riveting account, he cannot help himself from being enchanted. All his life he has held the deepest admiration and respect for his mother's spunky sister. She had been the only relative in either family to thumb her nose at the indignation of such an "unholy" match and continue her relationship with her beloved sister and her husband. Indeed she was their friend, confidante and crusader.

When Kiro was born, she declared herself his godmother, becoming a fairy godmother at that.  She showered him with attention and praise. She took him to his skating lessons and later to his hockey practices to give his parents some time alone and to spend some time with him.  She was there for him when his parents traveled for their thriving export business. She was a second mother, a guardian angel, a confidante in his times of trouble and triumph. She was the only relative to go to his parents’ funeral.

***

"Look at him sitting over there all smug and confident. He is a handsome bastard isn't he?"

"Come on Natalie stop drooling, the cleaning staff has already been through this office."

"Don't tell me you wouldn't like to hop into the sac with him, Mika."

Mika gives the other woman a withering glance which goes unnoticed. "Sadists are not my type."

"No, masochists are." The other woman retorts icily.

"Excuse me?”

Natalie back-pedals quickly. "Sorry. I don't know what I'm saying."

"Obviously. Don’t you have any work to do?" Mika is doubly irritated by the comment and the fact that she has to deal with Curtis under Natalie’s hawk-eye stare.

"They say that he's the eighth wonder of the world."

"Oh my gawd, Natalie. Give it a rest!"

"Rest is not what’s on my mind,” drools the redhead.

Mika studies the other woman, unable to stop herself from taunting her. “Right, well if you will excuse me, he’s here to see me.”

Curtis ends the call, a satisfied gleam in his eyes. He quickly maps out a strategy for tomorrow when he'll meet with the Burks. He studies Mika as she breaks away from an obviously irritating discussion with Natalie and strides purposefully toward him. Even from a distance he can see the familiar hungry look in the redhead’s eyes. He gives Natalie no more thought, as he gets up from the comfortable leather sofa to meet Mika who is not smiling.

“Curtis.”

“Mika.”

She sighs, slightly exasperated. “What can I do for you?”

Curtis grins to melt the glacier between them. “It’s more what we can do for each other. I won't ask if you've heard about Samantha Burke.”

Mika nods, warily. “Yep. We just ran a preliminary story.”

Curtis. “I’m investigating this case.”

“Congratulations?”

Curtis, clenches his jaw, deciding to ignore her sarcasm. “It’s  better for both of us if we work together. We’re not at cross-purposes. We don’t want a repeat of the Spieller Case.”

Mika's smile is limited to her lips. “You mean you don’t want me to get more information and basically crack the case for you again while you try to coerce me to cooperate? You mean like that?”

Curtis foregoes trying to charm her. He studies her without expression. “That and you getting arrested for obstruction of justice.”

“Enter the threat,” she sighs wearily this time. “Look, that charge was tossed after I helped you solve the murders. I don’t give up sources and I won’t. So, what do you want?”

“A free exchange of information. You help me. I help you.”

This day is endlessly annoying, she thinks to herself as she stares the tall, muscular man down. “Fine. What you got?”

***

An hour later, after a gritty exchange of information with Curtis, Mika stands in front of an unfamiliar office door.  She’s been studying it for the last ten minutes, trying to get enough courage to open it and step in. Once again, she has to bear her soul into the hands of a stranger. Once again, she has to go through mental dissection. But if it will purge of the dreams that have been stalking her life, she will bite down and do it.  

She reaches for the doorknob and enters another world. The receptionist's desk is dwarfed by an enormous plant and the muted sounds of water draw her attention to an indoor waterfall. With less taste, the effect would have been tacky. It's beautiful but hardly conventional for an office.
 
"You must be Mika Gurin. Doctor Hammond is expecting you." The receptionist's musical voice cuts into her creeping hysteria.    

Mika nods as the secretary waves her in and lets herself into the inner office which is more subdued. The colors were chosen for a relaxing effect. The doctor however, is not what she expected. He must be in his late thirties, early forties. His tanned face is a severe alabaster sculpture.  His dark auburn shoulder-length hair is tied back.

He is imposing in the grey suit but his eyes entrance Mika. They are large almond shaped. A legacy from an Asian heritage, Mika estimates. Stunning in their own right with a turbulent sea green color that holds Mika's attention.

Immediately warning bells chime in Mika's head. A voice inside her insists she’s seen him before. Uncomfortably, she realizes that she has left too much time elapse since her entry. And in that time, he has been studying her too.

He smiles, a slow easy smile that rests on his face. In spite of herself, Mika returns the smile a bit self-consciously.

"Ms. Gurin. Please take a seat." He indicates a low, comfortable armchair in front of his desk.

"Dr. Hammond, please call me Mika. I'd like to thank you for seeing me so soon. I'm used to working on holidays, but I was surprised that you were in today."

He smiles again. "My receptionist and I have no ties so we prefer flexible holidays. Before we begin, let me tell you a little bit about myself..."

 For the next half hour, Kiro tells Mika everything about his professional life; where he studied; where he worked; the cities he lived in; some past cases he worked on. He entertains all her questions and answers them simply and truthfully.

This reassures her enough to tell him about her life. She gives a brief overview of her childhood and adolescence. She talks about her university life and the traumatic time she had when her father died and her mother later moved back to her native Vancouver.

"I felt doubly alone, but I knew that was the best way that she could deal with dad's death. I came to accept it and it's given me a place to escape to once in a while. She's remarried since and her new husband is really great. I'm happy for her."

"And what about you?"

"What about me?"

"Are you happy for yourself?"

"On the whole, yes. I have the job of my dreams, a wonderful house, and awesome friends. My love life isn't that great, but whose is these days?"

Kiro smiles and nods agreement. "When did the dreams start?"

 Mika tenses for the first time. "About a year ago."

 "Did anything happen that you think might have set these dreams off?"

 "Not that I can think of.  I was promoted earlier that year from researcher to assistant editor. The new job is more stressful, but frankly, I thrive on stress. I had spent the holidays with mum and Bill and it was really fun. I was going out with a man I was serious about at the time but later proved to be a genuine jerk..I really can't pinpoint anything specific."

 "Okay. Good enough. Now, this is what I propose we do...stop me when you like. I want to hypnotize you to go back to the events of the time just before the onset of the dreams and insomnia."

 "Hypnosis?"

 "You sound a bit hesitant. Let me reassure you. Hypnosis has a good rate of effectiveness and is dangerous only in severe situations of psychosis, in which case I would not go into it without any extensive preparation. While you're hypnotized, although you're in a state similar to unconsciousness, you never really relinquish control of your psyche. In other words, you don't say or do anything that your mind cannot live with. Are you with me so far?"

 "So far."

 "I will be recording every session and  you will have access to those recordings. We can go through them together. Needless to say, I treat all my cases with extreme confidentiality. All tapes and files are kept in that safe to which only I have access, and my law firm of course, in case of emergency or death." He chuckles at her expression. "I know this seems all cloak and dagger, but my prime objective is that my clients feel secure and at ease."

Mika exhales deeply. "Let’s do this."

***

The streets are deserted even though it is early evening. Even the criminals that patrol the streets at night have given up and gone to their dubious source of warmth. Curtis likes walking at times like these. It gives him the sense that the city belongs to him.

His feet bring him to the tiny all night diner in the Greek section of town. This is the only place Curtis has ever considered home, and unconsciously, he gravitates here whenever his deeply buried soul is troubled.

He looks through the freshly cleaned windows. Nasos is there as always - big, tall, with the perpetual apron around his thick waist. The florescent light shines on his balding head. He is joking as usual with one of his pre-dawn regulars while attacking the grill with his famous pancakes.

Nasos is the only family Curtis has known. He took in the rebellious adolescent, giving him room, board and a job when everyone else regarded him with suspicion. It didn't matter that they didn't even have a drop of blood in common.

Curtis pushed open the door, the bell-chime announcing his arrival..

"Re! If it isn't the soldier of fortune. How ya doing Curtis?"

"Well. Ti kaneis, gero?"

"You call me that again and your chops will be minced meat... You hear him, Joe?  Calling me an old man! No respect do the young have for their elders."

Curtis straddles the stool and grins at Nasos' mutinous expression.

"What are you grinning at, re? Why don't you go home instead of prowling the streets?"

"If it weren't for us prowlers, you'd be out of work."

"Will you listen to him? Bull shit! How about a strong coffee? You look like you need it along with some pancakes...and  sleep."

"Nix on the last two, but a coffee will be great."

"Then get off your ass and get it! What? Did you forget you used to work here? Or you too important to hustle now?"

"Okay! I give up. I'll get it. Lord What a nag."

The two men grin at each other affectionately.

"How're the wife and kids Nasos?"

"Kids are great! George and Nikki are doing great in university.  Maria went to Greece for a few weeks to see family. And what brings you to the old neighborhood?"

Curtis holds up the cup and grins. "This."

"Oh, bullshit! Don’t you have fancy coffee shops in your neighborhood? What's troubling you?"

"Nothing's troubling me. I just have a new case and you know how it is."

“All I know is you better take care of yourself. You need to live life, not battle through it. I say this with love.”

“I know, man. I know.”

***

The wind rose to a whining moan. She controlled her mind, drawing from her years of training, piecing out the trail she had minutely planned. This was no haphazard escape, yet it was not without its dangers. They would pursue her, bent on taking revenge for her treacherous and traitorous acts as they perceive them. Those who will be sent to find her and eventually kill her will not know the truth behind her actions.

The imposing rock started to recede. The wind retreated, howling behind her. Slowly, the layers of cold began to peel away and she loosened her scarf to take in the chill air. Her hands in the thick gloves started to thaw. Between the last two mountain breasts, she saw the darker turquoise of the distant fields. She was closer to her destination, which eased the vice that had taken hold of her heart.

Rocks crumbled under her trembling feet. She could barely see, her body feeling heavy. A cave opening materialized, inviting her with its possible safety. She gathered some kindling; and illuminating the cave’s thankfully unoccupied depths, she entered her haven for the night.
A fire was soon burning high and warm. The ground cleared and the sleeping mat unrolled, she released her feet from their booted prison. With her sheepskin jacket wrapped tightly around her, she wriggled into her warm bedding.

Taking a deep drink of jasmine tea and several hearty chunks from the dried beef, she felt her frozen blood starting to course faster. She chewed slowly, listening to nature settle into the arms of the night. She settled too, resting her head on her bag. Nestled in the downy blanket, she stared at the purple core of the burnishing, copper fire. Tears trembled on her eyelashes and slowly drifted down her cheeks.

Her own survival was unimportant, her task, however, was. Those who would persecute her had their own motives. They believed in their own truths. She had to defend hers. Burying herself deeper in the bedding, she closed her eyes to sleep...


Mika's eyes snap open. She groans, wishing she has already started her hypnosis sessions with Kiro; yet he insisted that she journal her dream first. She gazes at the frost patterns like crone’s fingers clawing at the panes. She has confidence in Kiro, almost too much confidence for such a short acquaintance. Yet, it does not feel like that. The moment she looked into his eyes this afternoon, she felt transported. At ease. Protected.

“Irrational” she tells the empty room and pulls the pillow over her head. Doggedly, she decides that she will sleep through the night.

***

Curtis goes home to shower and shave. His condo, new, cool and functional sees him very rarely for any other purpose. It is sparsely furnished with the barest of essentials. No pictures or ornaments break the monotony of white walls and black furniture. No visitors have ever crossed the threshold.. Curtis even does his own cleaning to avoid any intrusion into his sphere. His dates are inevitably taken to hotel rooms of varying degrees of luxury or to their place if he cannot avoid it. Not even Nasos or his family have ever seen this inner sanctum.

Quickly, he throws his clothes into the laundry hamper, taking note that this chore can no longer be put off. He steps into the shower, alternating the water from hot to cold. He allows his mind the rare luxury of wandering.

Suddenly, the distant memory surfaces, of his feet sinking in the clay soil as he runs to the river. Then the tree comes into focus. The tree he would sit on, far away from the world, his haven from the poverty and confusion that he lived in. On the tree, he never felt helpless. Since then, he has waded through a world without trees or rivers, through solemn, grizzly realities. Some he barely escaped from with his life.

 He wasn't expected to be anyone then, or anything. He was just a boy. People laughed at him or got angry at him. He did not care.. Now, he is a man who avoids thought or emotion. He seeks not to find or be found.  In his mind, he wishes he never left that tree.

With a grunt, he pushes those thoughts away. In record time he is out of the shower, dressed, and ready to go to the department and then on to the interview that will possibly shed some light on this case that has haunted him since he heard about it.

***

On his third awakening, Kiro finally gives himself up to the sleepless night. He rises, feeling the chill crouching in the shadows. He pads to the kitchen to put the kettle on. He flicks on his CD player, letting the music softly stroke the air. Preferring the dark, Kiro stands at the window. He is held hostage by an overwhelming feeling of not déjà vu but déjà écouté. Her voice transports him to mountains and frosted air, fields and flight.

He looks down at the various lights still burning a hole in the night. The light in the kitchen reflects his image, superimposing it on the cityscape. He knows exactly what is happening to Mika, for it has happened to him. He however, has had the training and access to ancient wisdom to deal with the truths that lie behind those dreams. He must prepare Mika thoroughly and gradually, before any such realization can be allowed to foster in her. Kiro hates deception, but if he must use it, so be it. Mika must be made comfortable with rituals of contemporary psychology. Otherwise she will buckle under and break.

He stands naked at the windows, feet apart, hands behind his back, hair untied. He realizes that he has taken the stance of the warrior.

"That is exactly what I have to be."

His motionlessness is broken by the kettle's whistling. Returning to the kitchen, he prepares the tea. He pours it in a cup and returns to the window which he opens for air.

"Why must my life be plagued with visions?"

Shattered fragments are seeking to be reunited into a whole. Will he recognize these fragments? Was he part of them? Will he be able to put them back together? Who knows, but life?

Dragon's breath forms as the cold night air invades the room.

And life has secrets.


4 comments:

RedRhonda said...

You really should be publishing this Genie. Your writing is wonderful! I just want more! Thank you so much for sharing this, I absolutely love it!

Genie Sea said...

Thank you Red!! ♥ It's my hope to publish :)

Lisa Chanana said...

I came in looking for Chapter 3... I'm going through withdrawal here Genie! <3

Genie Sea said...

lol Sorry! Chapter 3 is coming! I have more extended revisions to make on this chapter, so it's slower :)